How is everything going, I miss you guys so much. As for me things are getting better and I've been able to learn and find happiness here in the Conception. Although things still aren't easy I am now understanding better that which God wants of me and expects of me. Yes I believe exactly what Ryan said to be true because after conference I felt an energizing, uplifting spirit that gave a great influence in the work for me right now I see that there are many miracles that are passing here.
It's gonna be weird to see all of you and how you guys have all changed and to see whats new... feels like a lifetime since we have seen each other. But I guess that's how it goes for the moment. Last week I printed off the letters that you guys sent me and I read the different experiences that have passed in this short year and a half. I have seen the love of a Heavenly Father that has watched over us and has protected us in the thick and thin. Although we have learned very much I still don't think He is done molding each and everyone of us to become more like Him and what He desires of us. I never thought about how He would still be changing me after the mission because I change seeing the different challenges others have and learn to not make those same mistakes. However I guess it's the same thing... just not in a foreign land lol
But this week I was able to understand more about prayer and the importance as well as the power of this principle which to many seems to be something small and perhaps insignificant. However, I have come to love it that much more and to understand how to do it better and not just get into the day in and out routine that sometimes I would get into. It started out with the first part of the week as I was studying, the word prayer seemed to stick out a lot more then ever, so I pondered about what was needed to improve because it seemed like the word prayer was in every which way I turned. However, the touching powerful influence came to me Sunday in the sacrament meeting. It was funny because it wasn't some talk that gave me my answer however the little children from the primary who were giving their program haha
They all talked about different concepts from the gospel doctrines. However they started to talk about prayer and nothing really notable seemed to stick out, however during this same time my companion said I'm going to the bathroom so we left to go over there and as I stood outside, there came a thought to my mind that came from a primary song that influenced me to say a little prayer. As I did I remembered the words of the primary teacher that said we can tell Him what we want our desires. I did just that in my prayer I said God I thank thee for all things for your mercy and love, but then I said I want that our investigators can come to church and that they can feel the spirit that will make them progress.
After that short prayer my companion had left the bathroom and we went back into the sacrament room. As I sat there that same song which was in my head the kids started to sing. Listening to the words carefully... translating so then I could better understand hahaha As the words passed I only remember two phrases
1. Heavenly Father are you really there?
and do you hear and answer every child's prayer?
Some say that Heaven is far away
but i feel it close around me as I pray
2. Pray, He is there
speak, He is listening
in the part when the children were singing these two parts there came unto me a overwhelming spirit that filled my whole body and I felt tinglies. It was an undying answer from my Father in Heaven telling me that he truly is listening to me and answering my prayers, that I'm being heard and not just down on my knees doing nothing.
I will never forget this spiritual influence that came to me from a loving father in heaven... knowing that it was well needed, however the part that gave me the greatest spiritual influence is after this song I took a look over to the door and I saw walk in the two people that I wanted to see in the church that day. I was in my head crying with joy knowing that not only He told me he was listening but however as well he was willing to answer. Fulfilling the desires in my heart, which for some reason I knew were going to be completed. I now am trying to pray more humbly and really tell my father how I am doing and not just go through the routine. I still am not perfect in prayer but I'm trying each day to develop a stronger relation with my father in heaven and to come unto Him. I've learned that he truly answers our prayers and we aren't alone if we will just invoke His name.
This week will be a lot better then the last I just know it because I've been able to learn so much and have been shown unto me some of the greatest and marvelous things of the Lord. Maybe I don't know all things and maybe I'm not completely perfect but I can make sure that our Heavenly Father is giving me each and every opportunity to become better and to see the way unto eternal life... sometimes I think He just wants me to be patient always... but maybe it's something i lack... lol wasn't too patient before so now he wants me to be super patient hahaha
ahhh thanks so much for the birthday wishes I feel so weird because i don't want to get older... 21 years olds. time goes by so fast and it doesn't get any slower no matter how much we want it to. I feel like each day things seem to be going fast and faster and fasterrrrr lol Its going to be really different when I get back, hopefully you guys still recognize me and don't think I'm too weird, bringing back all the funny nica traditions lol
I want that when I get back that each of us can be nica... I will teach the different signs that they do and the little funny things that they do so you too can be like them... lol I think mom will be the best Nica... hahahahhahahahha or maybe Skyler, I think it will be a tie between the two. Live life like a NICAAAAA lol
I love each and everyone of you and thank you so much for all the prayers, love, and support. I miss you guys so much I can't believe the time has passed so fast but there is a little left so I've got to go big or go home lol Just so you know I decided the first thing I want to do is go to the temple .... the first thing I want to do is to go there and thank Him for allowing me to be a missionary, for His mercy and love... second is be with the family for a whole 48 hours listening about how you all have grown and what are the new things. Lol after that nothing really matters but those are for sure what I want first...
I love you all so much I care for you and pray for you. I hope the best for each and everyone of you and that you are able to find peace and joy in your journey of life. Be the best you can be and always live up to what the Lord has given. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH... I couldn't write it enough
Love
Elder Trujillo
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